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[Sunday
January 1st, 2006] |
I thought i was happy.
I only grew stronger.
I need to stop ignoring my heart.
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[Saturday
December 24th, 2005] |
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Aw, I miss Conner,
But i'm in New Jersey and i might go to New York tomorrow for christmas day, When i get back expect a shit load of pictures,
I love you all, Especially the Friends that have stayed by my side.
Hopefully by the end of christmas i'll have enough money to buy presents for all my buddies.
<3 you,
If you need to reach me call 4438512
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[Saturday
December 17th, 2005] |
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conner: yes
Me: pft
conner: ur better than the ipod video im getting
conner: ur better than an gift i could imagine
conner: i would walk across the world jus to get a hug from u
dghkldfjbhlkjdfbhlkjfdbh
I just can't stop smiling.
it's all so perfect right now.
Merry christmas to me.
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[Friday
December 16th, 2005] |
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His words make up perfect sentences.
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[Sunday
December 11th, 2005] |
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I just saw wicker Park.
I cried, It's really nice, The ending is amazing
and how it all comes together, it's just incredible.
I wish my life was that great.
At least i have some friends and my brother, And Haley..
They make my life complete.
No matter what I do, Without him.. I'm not the same anymore.
And i'm JUST realising it.
I'm fucking pathetic
"Oh another boy will help me"
It hasn't worked yet.
Maybe it will sometime :/
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[Sunday
December 11th, 2005] |
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Someday, I just want to be happy. I hate the way this is turning out,
New boys, More boys, Boys, Boys, Boys. I hate these boys!
I just want the right one.
Any boy that says “I Love you”, but doesn’t mean it, Deserves to go to hell.
I’m sick of falling for the boys that won’t treat me right.
I want an attractive boy, But I also want a boy that will be sensitive, Creative, Sweet and caring and NOT run off with a hundred other girls every day.
I’ve been taken advantage of, and I’m not letting it happen again,
Anyone who has been in a relationship with me, even a little…
Knows, That I fall in LOVE, I don’t just like. I wont go out with you if you’re an idiot who wants me in bed, Because you probably wont get me in bed anyway.
I miss being happy like I used to be. I was completely happy for 6 months of my life.
No matter how much I complained, I was the luckiest girl in the world.
And now I’m not.
And it’s all my fault.
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[Sunday
December 11th, 2005] |
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Sorry I haven't updated in a while.
Yesterday i went to the mall, and i saw
MY BROTHHHERRR.
i gauged his ears for him, and we went to lowes and we went to a chinese place.
lalalala.
i love my brother. :)
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[Monday
November 28th, 2005] |
I fucked up my hair.
and i give up.
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[Sunday
November 27th, 2005] |
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Me and Leila went skating at semoron skateway today.
Then we went and DDRed IT UP at Rocky's Replay.
Haha, it was great.
Then Derek came over and me leila derek some kid named arial and alex played mario party 4
Hahaha, I WAS PRINCESS PEACHHHH. :)
Anywayyyy..
My mom caught me and derek kissing! :O
ahh!
And..... I DIDN'T HAVE A RIDE FOR HIM HOME..
So..
He had to walk.
And i feel so bad.
Also,
A lot of people are hating me right now.
I'm not liking it :(
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[Saturday
November 26th, 2005] |
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Lua - Brighteyes <3<3 |
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I had a bad day yesterday.
I was really excited about something that ended up being fucking stupid.
then i went to a cuban party and had a little fun
:)
now i'm fucking tired cause i went to sleep at one and it's 8.
i love jentri.
haha
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[Monday
November 21st, 2005] |
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I hate this.
Boys pretend to love me, just so they can hurt me.
It's amazing, acually.
How I fall for it every time.
There was only ONE point in my life where i believed i was going to be happy forever.
But he fucked it up anyway.
every fucking day i talked to that boy, I would never ever let him stray to far away.
And then one day it was over.
Then i try to move on, and no matter what i do, He's either not for me...
Or he DOESNT WANT ME.
And i HATE you for pretending you wanted me.
I'll never be good enough for anyone.
Ever..
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[Saturday
November 19th, 2005] |
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last night was amazing.
Me, Derek, Ryan, And Boesen at the mall.
I love themmmm.
We walked to target through these plants and shit and ran and derek kept jumping into bushes and stuff.
At target ryan and derek hid from me and sarah and they like ran around ahaha. It was great.
Then we went back to the mall and i gave everyone a ride home.
i didn't see jentri much though. :[
Hopefully today I'll get to see Harry Potter with Derek. :]
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[Thursday
November 17th, 2005] |
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Today was boring.
I miss Derek.
I'll see him tomorrow.
I'm really excited.
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[Wednesday
November 16th, 2005] |
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Okay, So friday I'm supposed to go to the mall/movies with derek.
And saturday apparently Tyler and Kara want to come over..
And sunday i'm stuck going to church/conformation class and reading tale of two cities.
Interestttinnnngg.
I miss Derek though, He's a great friend. :]
Casey thinks i'm mad at him. I'm not.
Alex thinks i'm a bitch. Haha.. Greatt.
SORRY ALEX.
Oh & I'm getting better at making shirts.
They aren't shitty anymore like alex, riley & stewarts.
I found out why those sucked.
The paper wasn't heated enough because the iron was retarded.
Haha, SUCKS FOR THEM.
although they are nice.
I think i'm going to cut my hair some more.
Oh & to whomever continues to think critizing me anonymously on my LJ is cool,
Really.. You need friends. And a hobby. Because if you have nothing better to do then to lurk my Livejournal
Then you can go suck a dick
It's pathetic.. And i could care less.
Just clearing it up.
<3
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[Monday
November 14th, 2005] |
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There's so many things I have to say
I'll stay up all night to hear about your day
We do the best we can in a small town
Act like kids in love when the sun goes down
I love copeland.
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